The darkness swirls in me,
swishes and thrusts my organs and bones around into a horrific mess.

I feel completely helpless
in this never ending turbulence that’s happening within.

The nights never felt longer,
with the active sugar filled brain cells constantly mocking at my tired body.

Sounds from the external environment combined with those within,
make the body feel like combusting into a dust of ashes.

I want to will everything to stop.
I want to stop this pain from manifesting inside of me.

But,
I can’t help it.