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Loving and Remembering You Always — Debbie Chan Mei Ling.

Nov 4th, 2016 Writings, Yoga 5 min read

A full month has flown by. A month and a week ago, you sent me a 4:37min WhatsApp voice message. You had finally allowed me to visit you in the hospital! I was overjoyed, and shifted plans around to see you the following day. I walked into your hospital room. It was different from the first one I visited you at a few months ago….

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The Story of the Cold, Dark Box

Mar 4th, 2016 Writings, Yoga 2 min read

It is cold and dark. There are four walls, a ceiling and a floor. No windows. It is a box of steel. Nothing comes in and nothing goes out. The frigid weather of beautiful falling snow set the temperatures within the box to way below the minuses. The cold has frozen the heart and the soul. The space, so tiny, a mouse wouldn’t survived in…

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Website Revamp

Jul 12th, 2015 Yoga 3 min read

It took me only five years to revamp this space. A Communications undergraduate then, misscheryltan.com was born in 2009 as an attempt to figure out the digital landscape. This space has been through a few reconstructions with the last one done in 2011, shortly before my move to Toronto. Since the beginning of my blog, I started questioning about life and what it means to…

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How Do We Change The Patterns In Our Lives?

May 29th, 2015 Yoga 3 min read

Time after time again, I see myself falling into the same trap. The same ditch. The same dark hole that swallows my entire being. It’s almost life-threatening. The mind-body connection is such an interesting subject to study. Even though my head rationalises logical reasonings, the body is slow to catch-up. For one who seems to wallow in self-hatred, this slow catch-up game that the body…

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Because I Am A Girl

Dec 4th, 2014 Yoga 3 min read

A few months ago, I wrote a poem for the Body/Language workshop, one that “aims to engage participants in an effort to unpick these notions of gender and to uncover experiences and stories of their own bodies through poetry.” The following is a video of my reading at the Singapore Writer’s Festival this past November.       Because I Am A Girl That irritating…

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Striking a Balance Between Lightness and Darkness

Sep 7th, 2014 Yoga 5 min read

The memories came flooding back like tidal waves crashing into rocks. And they felt good. Letters from kindergarten, elementary, and high school friends; photographs of my younger days with family members; old school uniforms, baby clothes that mom lovingly kept, bears, beads, cross-stitched patterns, piano books from the time I started playing to now, and even melted candy were found in these treasure boxes. These…

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To Escape or Accept Our Dark Spaces

Aug 14th, 2014 Yoga 5 min read

It is dark with no speck of light available in sight. The space is small and cramped, with cold walls as the only source of comfort. The deafening silence is punctured with the sounds of rapid breathing. There is no one else around. I’m caged in. Sensations bubble up within the body. Pain sears right through the core, like a sword piercing into the skin,…

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Breaking Free From My Chains

Jul 3rd, 2014 Yoga 3 min read

It has not been an easy past two weeks, since my return back to Singapore. The desire to end this painful part of my life has struck me countless of times, which lured me into my old tendencies of wanting to runaway. During those times when desperation hit me right at the core, I experienced a complete shut down in my body. The pain soared…

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Canadian Vesper

Apr 23rd, 2014 North America, Yoga 3 min read

Canadian Vesper Softly at the close of day, As our campfire fades away. Silently each Guide should ask, Have I done my daily task. Have I kept my honour bright, Shall I guiltless sleep tonight, Have I done and have I dared, Everything to ‘Be Prepared’. This was one of my favourite Girl Guide songs, and we would sing it at the end of every…

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Goodbye, Bikie.

Apr 17th, 2014 Yoga 2 min read

I sold my bicycle today. Yes. My pretty, hardy, and sturdy cruiser has been sold to a Vancouverite who will be moving to live with her soon-to-be husband in St. Catherines, Ontario. Her fiance was really kind and showed me pictures of her because he saw the pain in my eyes when I had to part with my darling bicycle. I’m grateful. My bicycle has…

Anger Management

Can I Stop Feeling Already? (Or Not)

Apr 11th, 2014 Yoga 5 min read

Eyes wide open. Cheeks flush. Heart palpitation accelerates at an alarming speed. Nostrils flare up. Breathing quickens. Body heats up. I am angry. I am frustrated. I am anxious. Growing up, I was constantly reminded of my anger management issues at school and home. There were countless days spent in detention because of my inability to conform to rules and regulations. I was labelled as…

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This Girl’s Ride – That Never Ends.

Mar 5th, 2014 Yoga 3 min read

Her shoulders caved in, Bearing the weight of self-judgement and self-hatred. Days flowed into nights without a notice, For she was caught up in a volcano of emotions. Sadness, anger, frustration, and anxiety swirled around in her, There was no outlet, no escape route, no where to hide. She wanted to disappear, Fast and now. With pigtails, swollen eyes and mucus filled nostrils, She fantasized…