Millbrook Dark Skies

To Escape or Accept Our Dark Spaces

Aug 14th, 2014 Yoga 5 min read

It is dark with no speck of light available in sight. The space is small and cramped, with cold walls as the only source of comfort. The deafening silence is punctured with the sounds of rapid breathing. There is no one else around. I’m caged in. Sensations bubble up within the body. Pain sears right through the core, like a sword piercing into the skin,…

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Breaking Free From My Chains

Jul 3rd, 2014 Yoga 3 min read

It has not been an easy past two weeks, since my return back to Singapore. The desire to end this painful part of my life has struck me countless of times, which lured me into my old tendencies of wanting to runaway. During those times when desperation hit me right at the core, I experienced a complete shut down in my body. The pain soared…

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Canadian Vesper

Apr 23rd, 2014 North America, Yoga 3 min read

Canadian Vesper Softly at the close of day, As our campfire fades away. Silently each Guide should ask, Have I done my daily task. Have I kept my honour bright, Shall I guiltless sleep tonight, Have I done and have I dared, Everything to ‘Be Prepared’. This was one of my favourite Girl Guide songs, and we would sing it at the end of every…

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Goodbye, Bikie.

Apr 17th, 2014 Yoga 2 min read

I sold my bicycle today. Yes. My pretty, hardy, and sturdy cruiser has been sold to a Vancouverite who will be moving to live with her soon-to-be husband in St. Catherines, Ontario. Her fiance was really kind and showed me pictures of her because he saw the pain in my eyes when I had to part with my darling bicycle. I’m grateful. My bicycle has…

Anger Management

Can I Stop Feeling Already? (Or Not)

Apr 11th, 2014 Yoga 5 min read

Eyes wide open. Cheeks flush. Heart palpitation accelerates at an alarming speed. Nostrils flare up. Breathing quickens. Body heats up. I am angry. I am frustrated. I am anxious. Growing up, I was constantly reminded of my anger management issues at school and home. There were countless days spent in detention because of my inability to conform to rules and regulations. I was labelled as…

Rainbows Niagara Falls

This Girl’s Ride – That Never Ends.

Mar 5th, 2014 Yoga 3 min read

Her shoulders caved in, Bearing the weight of self-judgement and self-hatred. Days flowed into nights without a notice, For she was caught up in a volcano of emotions. Sadness, anger, frustration, and anxiety swirled around in her, There was no outlet, no escape route, no where to hide. She wanted to disappear, Fast and now. With pigtails, swollen eyes and mucus filled nostrils, She fantasized…

Peace

A Prayer To God: On Acceptance and Imperfections

Feb 21st, 2014 Yoga 2 min read

Dear God, It has been a tough week. My social networks have exploded with ongoing debates concerning homosexual relationships and families, and I’m struggling to hold the opinions of both sides in me. I struggle because these were the same debates that haunted me for many years. I struggle because I wish people could understand the struggles I went through to express my truth. Dear…

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Could You Donate A Toonie To Me, Please?

Nov 26th, 2013 Yoga 4 min read

A few weeks ago, a well-dressed gentleman approached me and asked for a toonie. Without question, word or thought, I reached into my purse and fumbled around for change. Because my earphones were plugged into my ears, I didn’t know why he needed a toonie but I handed it to him anyway. As I walked away, I started questioning myself: Why on Earth did I…

Love Me NYC

I Fell In Love

Nov 6th, 2013 Yoga 2 min read

About a month ago, I fell in love. The love swept me off my feet, took me across many oceans and seas, and I landed in supportive and loving arms which were held wide open for me. I didn’t see this coming — not right now. The love was peeking from around the corners, and it seemed to be always there, but it took two…

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Circa 1999 — Affirmations

Oct 27th, 2013 Yoga 2 min read

I hear the truth in this song. It rings true to what I’ve gone through and studied in the past year. At the age of 13, I couldn’t comprehend what Savage Garden was trying to tell me. Today, as I listen to the lyrics, every single sentence strikes a chord in my mind, body and soul. Thank you, Savage Garden. Though my 13 year old…

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The Truth About My Voice

Sep 14th, 2013 Yoga 3 min read

I am an introvert. Public speaking scares me. Meeting new people scares me. Going to new places scares me. All these years, I have been fighting that fear by constantly daring myself to step out of my comfort zone, trying to be someone who is outspoken, friendly to all, and comfortable in new environments. Truth is, I suffered a burn out about two years ago,…

Yoga Millbrook NY Manduka

Swirling In The Actions Of Nudging, Pushing and Forcing

Sep 10th, 2013 Yoga 1 min read

My Yoga Teacher Training begins in exactly two days and a mere five hours ago, I was freaking my brains out. I felt completely uninspired, unmotivated, and sluggish. I flowed through a Vinyasa class this morning without a clear intention nor was my heart completely present on my mat. An hour passed and I was still somewhere else — high up in the clouds. So…